I created a new Xanga. I won't be using this one anymore. I'm not entirely sure why I created a whole new one. I barely used this one and for reason I felt like in order to really start posting regularly I had to start something new. So I did. A few of the posts on here I may repost on my new one if it's something I like but most of it will be brand new. Eventually I think I'm gonna delete this one.
You can find me at http://theslowdrug.xanga.com/weblog.

"Our system of law is designed to protect the minority from discrimination by the majority. If this ruling stands unchallenged, what's next? Will some states repeal a woman's right to vote? Will some states (again) forbid interracial marriage? Will some states deny housing, or jobs based on religious preference? 

If they can legislate against what they call a "sexual preference" what is to stop them from legislating against religious preference? People choose their religion. We choose to believe or not to believe in God. So what is to stop the majority in any state from discriminating against those who do not share the majority religious preference? 

This is THE civil rights battle of our generation.  We must not back down."

-Otep Shamaya

I've been to many of them. Here's my biggest issue with them: they don't know what they are talking about! Now of course they do to an extent. They've read all the books. They know all the symptoms. They can tell you exactly whats going on in your brain. But do they really understand the things they are talking about. from what I've experienced the majority of these "doctors" only know text book answers to our problems. But can a pill really be the solution? What do these doctors know about feelings? A psychiatrist should be the kind of doctor that can put a side the text book for a minute and pay attention to feelings instead. But they simply look at these feelings as another symptom for something strictly chemical. But things aren't that simple.
When it comes to emotional/ mental disorders I strongly believe that you can't fully understand it unless you've been through it. I had a therapist once who had some serious issues with depression when she was growing up. This is what lead her to decide to become a therapist. She wanted to do as much as possible to prevent others from suffering the way she did. Because of this she knew what she was talking about. In order to truly help someone you should understand what they are going through. Unfortunately my mom stopped taking me to her. My mom liked to refer to her as "the wacky lady." I'm not entirely sure why.
The reason I'm talking about this is because I've recently been seeing the counselor at my school. I find it hard to believe that a counselor could possibly actually care (I mean really care) about every single one of their patients. But they could at least pretend to a little bit. She doesn't at all. Everything is strictly business. Now of course it has to be to an extent but how the hell do you expect me to share my feelings with you when you act like you're bored in my presence? Everything she says is so rehearsed. I swear she sits and writes down all the questions she's going to ask me before I come in. Which in itself isn't a bad thing but she always seems to be expecting a certain answer from me. If I don't say what she wanted me to say she'll repeat the question.
I can't stand it. I can't stand how people say they care when they really don't. I can't stand how almost every therapist or psychiatrist I've ever been to doesn't really know a thing about what they're talking about or what they're medicating. They expect us to be zombies. And when we're not they blame it on some kind of problem, some kind of disease.



"Explain what? Explain to a doctor that physics can be suspended? That what goes up might not come down?"-Susanna (girl interrupted)